Friday, 03 July 2009

• Looking Forward...

  When things are so hectic and stressful, what can you do but to pray and hang on?

  I can not believe the ride we are fixing to take.  And here I though things had just settled down into a nice "normal" rhythm.  HA!  That's what I get for thinking that.

  Nothing drastic has happened, I am just looking at the short term future.

  And I see the next six months, me growing this tiny little baby inside of me, thinking of the life that will come to us in the new year.  Of the unique person that she (or he) will be.  And I want to cherish every moment of this.

  But then there is Mom.  Her test results came back worse than she thought and she is going to have to do some sort of chemo or something of the like.  That is likely to begin in a few weeks (seems like an awful long time to wait to begin, but then I am not her doctor).  As it stands, she will be out of work for 3-4 wks just because of her surgery, and if she does do chemo or something, I can not imagine her actually being able to work for quite some time, though I could be wrong.  I have offered her our home, although I don't know if she will be willing to let go of her place and her "freedom".  I just know that no work means no income, which means something has to give.

  Then we will have to just deal with all the basic physical and emotional needs that are bound to come with her illness and treatment.  Although, perhaps a new little life to look forward to will boost her emotions.

  And on top of that 1of9 is going through a lot right now.  And having her move back in is the right thing and I am very happy.  But we will also be having to deal with the physical and emotional needs of that situation over the next few months.

  Seems like an awful lot of pressure.  And here the next three months are supposed to be the "best" months of my pgcy!  Oh, well.  They are what I make them, that is for sure.  And I intend to make them the best of my life (until they are gone, then I will make the following ones the best of my life)!    No sense in letting myself get down.  I have a life to live.  I have a family to care for.  And my God is REALLY GOOD!

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